Godwinks.

I first heard that term from one of my clients. Weirdest term I had heard, even in the recovery field. At the time at least. God wink. What in the world is that?! Well, I asked what it was. Apparently it’s when god throws you a little gem and says “hey, I see you. Have this little nibble to let you know I see you and I’m watching. It’s me.” I’ve experienced those several times over the last few years since hearing that term. Sunday, after typing up my first blog here, I experienced one. It literally reflected what I wrote about in my first blog!! Ok God. I see you!! I was vulnerable. I prayed. I waited. Then I experienced that God wink as if he was saying “here you go, try this”. Now, I need to follow through on my end so it’s not entirely done just yet but it has started! I’m actually pretty excited about this one too. As odd as this one may be for me. Actually odd might not be the correct word. Uncomfortable isn’t the correct word either. I’m not really sure what the word would be for this one, but it’s a beginning either way! I have anew friend. Someone with a similar story and similar feelings. Someone I can bond with and potentially pour into. Pray for me y’all. This will be an experience for me. I’m ready Lord. Use me. On another note, I’m attempting to be better as a whole. Less complaining, better worker, more attentive, better mother. I need prayer there as well. Many prayers there actually. That’s a whole process. My journey is beginning all over. But, it’s progress not perfection. Right?!